Why I created this site
Why I need to write during a time when I haven't been feeling well.
Hello. I created this page because I just haven’t been able to feel good. Lately, because of the circumstances I’m in, I haven’t been able to pull myself together, and I’ve felt like I could hardly contain what’s going on inside me. So I decided to throw these words out into the void. Probably no one will read them, but at least I’ll write as if someone might.
To talk a little about how I’ve been feeling: I’ve had to deal with so many things at once, and everything has become so tangled. Right now, I’m not sure what I feel or think about any of it. That’s part of why I wanted to start writing. If I’m sad right now, for example, I have no idea whether it’s because of the game I’m making, because I missed class today, or because I’m sad about someone.
The feelings are there, but I can’t tell where they’re coming from or where they’re leading. The one thing I do know is that I don’t feel good. That’s surprising to me, because I’m usually someone who can find a way to feel good, or at least say, “okay, yeah.” Not being able to feel that way lately makes me feel even worse. They say time heals everything, but we’ll see whether it can heal this too.
Today, I really just wanted to explain why I feel the need to write. Everything in my head has become tangled, and I need to work through it all a little. I hope writing will help me do that.